Well, I have terribly and sadly neglected my blog. So much to say. So little time. So few good words. This school year is actually going quite well for us at home. But in some ways it is just plain hard. I am a glass half full kind of girl, so I try to focus on the positives, which makes it difficult for me to adequately articulate the negatives without feeling like I'm being whiny.
We have two seniors this year. One is graduating from our home school, one from a public charter school. One is graduating with honors. One is not. One is headed to college right away. One is probably not. These two children get along very well, which is so great and I am thankful for that. But there is often a lot of tension surrounding all the senior year stuff with the one who is perhaps not yet college ready. I feel it beneath the surface all the time, waiting to gush unexpectedly like a geyser at Yellowstone. Every morning I wonder what kind of a day it will be....a geyser gushing day? Or a geyser quiet day?
You may have already guessed that one of our seniors is daughter H. Her senior year stuff is layered on top of the already emotionally charged relationship that she and I have. I live in constant comparison to her bio mom, my motives, words, tone and facial expressions weighed and judged. No conversation is easy. Her perceptions continue to skew all that I say so that what she hears and what I mean are almost never the same thing. It is exhausting. For both of us!
But we keep trying. We keep going. We wake up every morning and start again. And every day God gives grace and strength and wisdom.
Here are a few highlights of the past two months:
Little Man turned TWELVE! I asked him if he wanted a different nickname than "Little Man," and he said no! He told me that when he is a grown man he will still want me to call him Little Man. Ha!
For his party he and four friends went to see Rogue One. We have it made for his December birthday, as I believe a new movie in the Star Wars franchise is scheduled for release every December for the next few years!
New Year's Eve at our house with the relatives.
And even though these pictures are always blurry every year, I can't help posting them. Our annual "Just Dance" party is such a hoot!
Last month my wonderful husband and I got to celebrate 25 years of married bliss together! I feel so blessed to have reached this milestone, and to have reached it with HIM. He is such a perfect match for me, and makes my life so much richer, deeper, and more fun. He surprised me with a night out at the Symphony Orchestra (which I LOVE). Here is a little story that shows how sweet and tender hearted he is. The week before our anniversary I found him one evening wiping tears from his eyes. When I asked him why, he said he felt so bad he couldn't take me on a fabulous trip for this milestone anniversary, that it wouldn't be a "big" celebration. I told him that reaching 25 was it's own reward. :) How I love that man!
In other news:
The indoor soccer schedule is kicking my behind. Mostly 7:00 a.m. games on Saturday morning! But son C gets up at 6:15 with no problem, eager to go play.
Hubby's job is going well. He loves the work, the location, the people (though he is slow to know very many well).
I got one of these for Christmas and I love it! Made the most delicious pork loin for dinner tonight.
Son G is still working at a fast food restaurant, slowly but steadily saving up for a car. We opened a checking account for him so he is learning the joys and responsibilities of using a debit card.
It is rather fun and sometimes awe inspiring to be the mother of several young men. I have tall, handsome boys! They attract girls. They are handling this well. Sometimes when I drop them off places and watch them walk away from the car, I marvel that these tall good looking young men came out of my body.
I started another sugar fast today. Day one and no cheating!
I am considering registering for another 5k, just so it will force me to train, but have not yet done it. Probably too chicken, but I blame my hesitation on my knees.
Daughter G is having a great sophomore year at college. She got to go to Florida for a class during J term and had a great class during the day and fun sticking her toes in the sand at night.