The Good, The Bad, The Ugly

I had a hard moment today. I took the baby monitor out of our 2 year old's room. It has not been used in over a year, but it has been sitting in there looking like.....well, a BABY monitor. It's not like I'm longing to be pregnant again, but it's hard knowing that the baby season is very likely over for us. It's just so final. Contentment is coming in small measures, but at times my heart tires of the process and just wants to be at the end of this journey. That's the bad thing.

The good part about taking the baby monitor out is that it was part of a larger project, cleaning and rearranging his room. Since we took the crib down a couple months ago his rocking chair has been at an odd angle kindof sticking out into the room. So I moved some things around, switched his books and toys to the opposite bookcase, and thoroughly cleaned. Now his rocking chair is in a corner and he is excited to have a "new" room! That's the good thing.

Then we decided to have a wonderful homeschool moment and go see the Perseid meteor shower. So we put the kids' pajamas on and set out at 10:00 PM to find a dark field somewhere where we could lie on a blanket and watch the show. Our son C fell asleep after about 2 minutes of driving. The 7 year old and 8 year old kept making Star Wars noises in the back seat which were extremely annoying. As we were driving the cloud cover began rolling in (it's supposed to rain tonight) and by the time we were a half hour out in the country you couldn't see a single star. So we turned around and came home and all the children went to bed late, grumpy, and disappointed (except for C who slept through the whole drive). That's the ugly thing.

I am going to bed now too, also grumpy and disappointed. I'm so glad God loves me anyway.