It does, however, create a sort of chasm sometimes when you are dealing with grief and at the same time having to move at the speed of your kids' lives.
Last night I went to the viewing of my friend from church who passed away last Sunday. All day as I was praying for her husband and son, and making plans to go, my children were quite busy getting on with the business of life. After seatwork was finished at the kitchen table, they proceeded to get every pillow from every room in the house, and every throw and blanket that wasn't tucked securely under the foot of a mattress, and build this "fort" in the family room with the help of the recliner footrest and an overturned rocking chair. It had 5 rooms (naturally!) and a lovely garden.
After A's roomtime it was time for his daily "activity". Love, love, love paint with water books!!
In the evening I went to my friend's viewing with several other friends. It was hard but good. God is showing such mercy in so many of the details. As soon as I got home, 5 year old C was waiting for me to take him on our date. We had made plans for this mother-son date a couple weeks ago and I didn't want to disappoint him. So even though a large part of me wanted to sit and talk with my husband, processing some of my thoughts, instead I headed out to Chuck E. Cheese's with C. Now you must know that I absolutely hate Chuck E. Cheese's. We have had a total of zero birthday parties there. I just can't stand the crowds and overwhelming noise. But that's where he wanted to go, so that's where we went. It was virtually empty that time of night, and pretty quiet! So that was a surprise blessing for me! We had a wonderful time. C is so much fun.
So for $5 worth of tokens, $2.25 for a milkshake, and 2 hours of undivided attention, I made one little boy very happy. And that made me happy. Even though I was sad.
4 comments:
When I went through my miscarriage (first baby) life seemed surreal...everyone else kept living and I seemed to be in slow motion. Keeping you and your loved ones in prayer with the fire and the family left of this lady.
Blessings,
Laurie
I LOVE that picture of you and C with the milkshakes!!
We should talk more about processing. I know it came up last night but we didn't really have a chance to discuss it.
i have thought of you MANY times in the past couple of weeks... about your twins and that very.difficult.loss. i'm not sure why the Lord kept bringing it to my heart/mind, but He did.
maybe it's time to schedule a "processing pie & coffee night"?
Your family is precious. We have had many blanket /pillow forts in our living room as well! And you have reminded me how important it is to take time to enjoy each child, even when it isn't always convenient.
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Beth
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